23 December 2012

23 December 2012 marks a very special date for me. Exactly 3 years back, on this very day Guruji blessed me to be a Divine Instrument. Those 15 days are still so fresh. Just a memory of the journey fills my heart with gratitude. I still remember with all my faith and a dream to serve the master I entered our Bangalore ashram for the Teacher’s Training Course. Little did I know at that time, that this one decision would change the entire life and these 15 days would become the most memorable and life changing days. I still remember how one by one, petal by petal Guruji opened us to blossom like a Rose. How it all happened is still a wonder to me.

I remember our teacher – Girin bhaiya saying that TTC is not just a teacher’s training course, it is Total Transformation of the Consciousness. And yes, the transformation did happen on all possible levels!

It is difficult to relate to what I was before those 15 days and how the entire consciousness just blossomed and transformed.  Since, the day I came back, every day of my life has become amazingly special. Today, it’s been 3 years; well it just feels like yesterday but yes 3 years! A lot has changes in and around me in 3 years.

HE said, you will not have any need unfulfilled in life and if I see, my life has been full of abundance. A sense of fulfillment has dawned and there is nothing which seems to be missing in life.

It feels as if he has picked up a stone and raised it to a level of worship. Just being his mere instrument, one gets so very much in life, that there is no time to think if anything is left. So many wishes I got on this special day, so much love is showered just coz someday HE decided to choose me.

My heart fills up with gratitude when I think and see how my life is transformed just because this one Divinity chose me. I am overwhelmed with the love I receive and am soaked with Bliss for life has become such a Blessing.

On this special day, I just pray and wish that for this lifetime, may this body and Soul be used for HIS work, for HIS mission of One World Family and for Spreading Smiles on this planet 

Close to the Master

Guruji was here for Bhagavad Gita discourse and the Janamashtami Celebration. During this visit, I had a chance to do a lot of Swadhyay. Majority time waiting for him went into introspection, so I am sharing what I realized all the more during this amazing trip we had with HIM.

We all want to be close to the master. But one extremely important thing to realize here is that it is not the physical proximity that actually matters. I know we all love being in HIS Physical Presence, nothing can be even counted close to that. And not to forget, our constant efforts to go near him; being inside the house, to standing very next to HIM, to sitting in the nearest car, to sitting in the same car and the list is endless. We do all that to be closest to HIM. And we are not wrong, who on this planet would not want to be close to HIM.

But what I realized this time is a step further. Being close to Him physically won’t even matter if you are not close to HIM from your heart. During this visit, there were instances when I was inside the same house, standing next to him and all the amazing moments I could dream of. But there were few realizations as I said. The most amazing memory of this trip was not when I was inside the house and physically in close proximity to him but when I was sitting far away and yet could feel his presence in my heart. What I got in a session sitting far away is beyond expression. And it dawned to me that it is not just his physical presence, HE has been saying it time and again, and it is a lot more than that. Coz he is just not the body, HE is far above that. I am sure we all have had those times, where we just FEEL him, Feel Close to HIM even if we can’t see him. Hold onto those moments of life coz they are the most special ones. For these make your heart full, the sweet tears roll out, these are a gift, a gift for the tremendous love we have for him, for the amazing and wonderful longing we have.

This is a time when the realization that “You, Guru and God” are the same dawns on the experiential level. The moments like these make you realize how loved you are and how precious you are to HIM. He truly has his own ways to make you feel close.

Quoting HIM:

“You are with the Master to share the joy of the Master, to share the consciousness of the Master. For that, you have to empty your cup of what is already in it. So you share that with the Master. You share whatever you have and don't judge, "Oh, that is garbage." The Master is ready to accept any garbage of any extent. However you are, he will embrace you. He is ready to share. You only have to share from your side.”

So don’t be stuck in your ways, coz you would miss out then when he attempts to give you, an experience of life time! Of the ultimate bliss and the ultimate closeness one can feel. So empty your cup and let HIM fill the same for you coz HE knows the BEST. :)

Jai Gurudev !

I Never Knew !

I was just going through one of my favorite poems written by Guruji. I am putting it exactly down here:

You never know
How and when
The existence will start
Using you for its purpose

You never know
How and when
You will be filled with abundance
And you will start raining
Quenching the thirst of many

You never know
How and when
You will be full of
Fruits and shade
And travellers will take
Shelter and food from you

You never know
How and when
You will be full with
Love and light
And you will start spreading
The fragrance of beauty to everyone

You never know
How and when
The death will come
And make you deathless
And life will start
Flowing out of you

You never know
How and when.... Really !

Just reading through it makes me so full of gratitude. I really never even realized when it all started happening and each word of the poem became an experience to me. A life experience and it amazes me all the more when I read that he is already said it all. It a beautiful wonder and I can be nothing but amazed by it. I really never realized how and when and believe me neither would you realize, how and when all these amazing things start happening in your life too. Most likely they are, happening already, just a little realization. We will never know how and when life became a celebration. All I know is that we are picked by HIM and we are the lucky ones. No, the luckiest ones to be chosen and picked and pampered by the Divine itself.

Ahhh ! What a blessing ! 

Just A Thought

We live in a world where everybody is running a rat race. A race where we want to achieve more and nothing is enough.

We want to achieve more and more and more. We want more money, better house, better job, better position, better car. However much we have, we still want to achieve something more and that is probably what keeps us going.
And the higher ladder we aspire to climb, the bigger steps we take. Little do we realize that in all this running, we have forgotten to stop and relax. We have forgotten to just realize that in the process of achieving more whose achievement it is. We work hard and hard and harder but who gives us the opportunities. We may think we chose our opportunities and en-cash them but who puts a thought in the mind to make decisions.

Whatever we do, whatever we achieve we are guided by something inside us. Some magical power, which in a very subtle way makes sure that we exactly get what we need. Again, I said need and not want. There is something or someone or some power which makes sure we exactly get need we want in life. In the midst of running and achieving and more running, take out few moments and ponder upon the fact that somehow something happens and the deal is cracked; and the dreams are fulfilled; the opportunities come forward and everything ends the way it should be, may not be the way we thought :P

Lets just relax and realize we always do get the best that should come. Everything just sets in like a movie and at the end the hero wins in spite of the struggle. The only difference in the movie and life is that the director doesn't make us realize that he is directing.

The giver is giving in such a way that we think it is our achievement.

And the moment this realization dawns, one can be nothing but grateful for HE chose us to be the hero and we didn't even realize.
Take a moment to be aware and be grateful, I am sure you will be in love with movie of your life then, coz the director just makes sure that the hero wins.